Monday, December 17, 2012
When I'm 64
"When I get older, losing my hair, many years from now Will you still be sending me a valentine, birthday greetings, bottle of wine? If I'd been out 'til quarter to three, would you lock the door? Will you still need me, will you still feed me when I'm sixty-four? You'll be older too Ah, and if you say the word, I could stay with you I could be handy, mending a fuse when your lights have gone You can knit a sweater by the fireside, Sunday mornings, go for a ride Doing the garden, digging the weeds, who could ask for more? Will you still need me, will you still feed me when I'm sixty-four? Every summer we can rent a cottage In the Isle of Wight if it's not to, dear We shall scrimp and save Ah, grandchildren on your knee, Vera, Chuck and Dave Send me a postcard, drop me a line stating point of view Indicate precisely what you mean to say, yours sincerely wasting away Give me your answer, fill in a form, mine forever more Will you still need me, will you still feed me when I'm sixty-four?" This is what we thought when we were young and the Beatles were singing our mantra of youth. Now that I am a few days away from 64, I am pondering what meaning it has for me now. When I look in the mirror, I see a gray-haired lady with a smile on her face. I wonder what happened to the girl I used to know. Somewhere, deep inside, she is there looking back at me, wondering what happened. I've spent 2/3's of my life as Kenny's wife. Over 30 years as somebody's mother and nearly seven as grandma. How did all this happen? I was 20, then, I blinked and now I am soon to be 64. I feel sad that I didn't appreciate each precious day as it unfolded. Why did I spend so much time looking forward. I was always looking forward to a day out there somewhere instead of just soaking up the essence of the present moment. Well, I've learned my lesson. From this moment forward, I vow to relish the moment. Where ever I am, whoever I'm with, I will soak up the time like a greedy sponge. I want to feel it all. I will spend my time on people, activities, events that please me. Simple. That's it. New goal for the rest of my life.